current status
# 31 January 2005 13:11
feeling down a lot more recently, and i'm still just as tired all the time.
i've been up for an hour after 9hrs of sleep and all i feel like doing is going back to bed.
nothing seeems to work. i tired doing some stuff for dA, but PSP crashed when I went to save a pic, the Terragen crashed and corrupted the saves of a 3-hour landscape I did. As well as that MediaWiki, which I installed to try and restart the SWdatabase on GB, just doesn't want to work.
I need to re-arrange my interview for Worcester college, but i can't get through. the phone just keeps ringing and nobody answers... gah.
so it's like that is it?
# 26 January 2005 23:01
yeah, today, i was on a 10-6, and usually it is the 10-6 managers job to cash-up the day-shift tills, but for some reason someone else did them today. they prolly don't trust me with the money or something.
twas busy again, and no crew on. again.
letter arrived at work form Worcester Tech today, must be them asking for a reference to go with my application. fun fun.
do not read this
# 24 January 2005 01:53
nah, i just couldn't think of a title.
well, looking to the future is all well and good. but, i'm not in the future yet, am i?
i was just looking through an old diary of mine that i randomly found (yeah i used to keep a daily diary... lol...) and i found the day i admitted to myself that i probably had a problem with depression. it was in feb 2002. thats almost three goddamn years ago, and i know its gone on longer than that... well, i would say more but not here. even my own site isn't a safe place to speak my mind any more. someone with a grudge against me will find it again, and just use it to take the piss out of me.
anyways, i'm kinda looking forward to college, in a strange "omfg" sorta way. whether it'll actually happen or not though, i dunno. i prolly won't get an interview. HA. me get an interview? yeah right... i almost forgot what one of those is.
did one of those viewpoint surveys at work again, and yet again i got told i was bad for telling the truth. if they want my opinions then they get my opinions, i'm not gonnna fucking lie, am I/? what would be the point in that.
and i swear some of the people i talk to online have turned into arseholes. and the rest i just don't talk to much anymore. people try to tell me that i am a good friend, but if that were so, how is it that i hardly ever go out with them? why is that i have lost contact with all but 1 person i went to school with? - even my best mates from school have long gone from my address books.
face the facts people...
i suck.
college application
# 19 January 2005 19:49
yeah, after months of nagging by Shain and now Tom too, lol, I have
given in and decided that i have nothing to lose by going to college.
Gonna apply for the BTEC National Diploma at Worcester College of
Technology. Turns out there is an open day tomorrow, so we'll go down
there and take a look. His mum will be coming so that he can drive his
new car. Don't think I mentioned about our crazy drive back from
Bromsgrove when he wrote off his old one... but never mind. lol.
college
# 18:48
Hmm... mail-to-blogger doesn't seem to be working... oh well. *copies and pastes from luckily saved email*
after months of nagging by Shain and now Tom too, lol, I have given in and decided that i have nothing to lose by going to college. Gonna apply for the BTEC National Diploma at Worcester Tech. Turns out there is an open day tomorrow, so we'll go down there and take a look. His mum will be coming so that he can drive his new car. Don't think I mentioned about our crazy drive back from Bromsgrove when he wrote off his old one... but never mind. lol.
blah blah blah
# 16 January 2005 20:01
yeah, so i was just leaving the house this morning, and my dad asked me to set up the comp so he can use the internet. i'm like "wtf?!" i only had like 12 minutes to get to work, so now i have to do it for him as soon as i finish this blog of crappiness.
work was pretty bad. luckily there were enough decent crew on to stop me killing the twats that were on. and it's the last day of the BOGOF week! w00t! but then we have more vouchers again tommorow, how fun.
i am really tired right now. i seem to be immune to sleep, i can sleep enough but still it has no effect. takes ages to get to sleep aswell, dammit, i'm wasting my time. lol, might aswell stay up 24/7. i feel like i've worked 2 weeks in a row i'm so worn out, but really i have only worked 5 days, and tomorrow then it is a day off at last. lol. at least i have a day shift tomorrow so it should be fairly quiet.
and i really have to stop myself from spending any more money on eBay, lol. i'm gonna have no money left for C3 at this rate... that would not be so good. but then i already paid for tickets and hotels and flights so tis all good. ish.
okay, now i am seriously considering going to college to do an IT course. Shain is pestering me to go to uni, ( :p ) and Tom told me i should do the IT course he is signing up for. twould be good, but it would hvae helped if he told me which course and where. lol.
damn, i never really appretiated how good the sound system is on my pc... *turns music louder* XD
take care
zzz
# 15 January 2005 11:24
i'm so fucking tired.
hardly got any sleep last night, and i've been up for an hour and a half, sitting here barely awake. i gotta go to work soon too, if i make it without falling asleep again.
gah, now i'm hungry too...
< insert witty title here >
# 02:10
back from work not long ago. had to pick up sister at 11 but because we were short on the close i went back to help out. was a pretty shit close, but it'll do.
deviantArt just went down for maintenance in the middle of me checking my messages... how dare it! and i have no coffee left, prolly because i used it all up. lol
i have to work on sam's birthday, so i won't be able to go out... nooooo! i did try to book it off, but so did everyone else. heh. and i was last in the book so never mind, eh?
I'm running out of things to say, but i think i should post more often, even if i have to make up stories... lol. hmm... i had a dream last night that me and some friends were in some kind of game doing a mission, and these cars came flying down a hill towards us. we dodged most of them, until two buses came down the hill together. the second one got me, because it turned towards me and i couldn't get out of the way. lol... i woke up at that point, and usually i can go back to sleep and carry on the same dream, but i couldn't for some reason. possibly because i was splatted down a hill. oh well.
w00ty emailness
# 11 January 2005 08:18
decided to try out Mozilla Thunderbird for my email. but i now have
322 emails to sort through.
and i noticed that hotmail no longer lets you use POP accounts for
free, how crappy is that?
i have 99 new email messages in my homtail account which i don't even
use, and i thought i had deleted... *rolls eyes*
i'm still tired as hell, even though i had 10 hrs sleep and have been
up for 2... anyways, i'm on the close tonight so i better go get
ready. fun awaits... or something.
r i p
# 01:34
well, i had a fairly shit day at work, but thats all seems irrelivent now...
i learned today that Mr Campbell, my former Physics teacher at Hagley RC High, was found dead in Worcester on Monday...
I found a news article that seemed to match what little i knew [ HERE ], and then after talking with an old friend, it seems the car mentioned *was* his car. So I guess it is true then... I never really liked him either, but he was alright... he always let me and philbow use the Acorn 5000 computer in his lab at lunchtime while we were doing a multimedia project... i always remember he liked showing off his laptop computer, lol. and he hated my handwriting, which is really crap. he once made me redo my GCSE coursework because my writing was so bad.
oh well. as they say, life must go on for the rest of us.
may he rest in peace.
nice
# 09 January 2005 14:42
the long blog i just typed up randomly dissapeared into the depths of cyberspace. how lovely.
now, i'm still tired after 10 hrs sleep and 2hrs awake, and i have to go do a shift about 9/10 hrs long (it depends).
must remember to remove the snow from the homepage...
...
# 01:18
random blog for the hell of it.
feel like shit.
the end.
nat's 18th
# 03 January 2005 02:18
yeah, twas me sister Natalie's birthday toda-err, yesterday. she was 18 so we had like everyone round and lots of alcohol available. although Gav prolly had a wee bit too much... but anyways. was a pretty okay night, really.
things are looking up a bit at the moment, Tom and Caz are great friends and i should be going out some time with them again soon, and at work we have the nice quiet period to look forward to - where everyone has gone on diets for new years, lol. they'll be back in the spring though, unfortunatly.
ah well...
2005
# 01 January 2005 01:34
well this is turning out to be the best new year ever!
i'm having so much fun here. just see me... have fun.... yeah.
this sucks already. think i'll go to bed.
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